An Easy Litmus Test for Depression

There’s an easy way to determine if you suffer from Major (aka, Clinical) Depression, or if you’re just depressed, aka feeling blue. To clarify, when I say depressed, with a lower-case “d,” I’m referring to the emotion. It’s the temporary feeling that comes and goes like every other emotion, and is caused by circumstances. When…

I’m Not Reliable Anymore

I used to be sharp. Focused. Reliable. I was on point, all the time. It was one of my finest skills. I remember what it was like. But I’ve come to a painful realization: that quality is gone from me. It has slowly slipped away. It’s not like dementia. I don’t blink and suddenly have…

Where’s Our Representation?

The big hotness in Hollywood right now is “diversity.” All races, ethnicities, orientations, and whatnot are being represented in film, television, stage, video games, novels, and more. So where’s the representation of chronic invisible illness sufferers? People like me and you, with Lupus, Fibromyalgia, Dysautonomia, etc.? It’s true that some better-known illnesses like Depression and…

I Feel Bad for My Kids

You know how when you have a terrible cold or the flu, and all you want to do is stay in bed? If you’re young or single, you might be able to get away with that, but parents are a no-go. There are kids and responsibilities and stuff. Now imagine feeling sick every single day…

Fibromyalgia Loves to Mess With You

When you’re feeling a symptom that’s new and different… How do you know when there’s something really wrong? How do you know when it’s time to see your doctor? The problem of Fibromyalgia is that you exist in a state of constant sensory overload — in an internal sense. In other words, your own body…

Topical Painkillers

Have you ever wished that you could rub a painkiller into your skin instead of taking so many blasted pills? If only topical painkillers — ointments or creams that contain pain medication — were a real thing. Well, they’re starting to be. I’ve recently come into possession of two different kinds, both of them prescriptions….

What a Lupus Flare Feels Like

A flare is one of the hardest things to describe about having Lupus. As a writer, that’s a maddening thing. A large part of what I do is finding just the right words to describe something. Feeling these crazy sensations and not being able to convey what that’s like… It does not compute. One reason…